TRUST! You see, I have an issue with trust. I don't trust anyone. Ever. It's sad, but true. I always expect the worst out of a person. I suppose, in a way, that it's a defense mechanism. If you always expect to be disappointed or let down then a person can't truly hurt you. Makes perfect sense (or at least it does to me)!
Lately, I'm learning that the key to a relationship with Christ is trust. I THINK that I know what's best for my life, but He KNOWS with utter certainty what I need. Sometimes I may need to experience pain to see the light on the other side.
I know last week I had my meltdown over Emory's lack of development, but at the end of the day I looked at how far God has brought our family. From infertility, through years on drugs, through a horrible pregnancy, and into this blessed thing called parenthood. If He can do all that then surely gaining a few pounds is the least of my worries. So I pulled myself up by my bootstraps and started feeding that baby. Maybe it's not what I want to feed him, but I'm sure there is a lesson behind all of this. I just have to TRUST!
What are you learning in your walk with Christ?
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